.Monday, July 13, 2009 ' 11:44 PM Y
only you will be able to make it .
KILLING ME SLOWLY INSIDE...
Today kinda pissed off... Maybe wasn't the right for me to be angry somehow... But have you ever know why do people smoke?Saying things like words of encrouagement was easy as to be spoken...You're not the one being hurt... You wasn't the victim...
Maybe I could've broken my promise and hurt you... But... but...
Was it the way I wanted?
I didn't intend you know... But I did...
You just walk away without any apology...
I did said it right... Those wasn't for me... But did you trust me? Don't say yes...
Cause you DIDN'T!!!
So whats the big ideal... If you don't trust me... Why do we have the deal from the start...
Have I told you that I'am serious could you give it back...
Did I?
And you just pass it on to other people... And then walked away...
Wow... Thx... Broke it...
And you treat it as nothing had happen... Hmmm... Guess. That's the best answer i could get?
You... Know what... It's like you didn't even give me a chance to breathe...
Kinda had enough...
Thinking way back... To those day I've been through...
Those Forever you said...
Those lies you told...
All the things that you hide from me...
Those shit that you gave me...
Did I expect anything much from you?
I was there when you needed me... And always there, I'd promise to you... And you promise it too...
But you left turning your back at me... Leaving nothing... NOTHING!
Did I even blame you...?
Those pressure that they gave...
Those excuses that they give...
Pushing me aside slowly...
Lonliness...
Scare...
Not I don't believe in forever... But it prove me wrong all the long it was naive...
Not i don't wanna trust, is just how would I trust...
Not i don't wanna say... Could I?
Not I don't wanna move on... Do I have the courage to fall again?
Not I don't wanna love... Do you leave again?
I'am just a normal boy... I can't do anything much...
Esmond is just Esmond... An Ordinary boy...
Though... It's past... But it still creeping on me... A scar would never goes away...
Do you know how it feels like?
Maybe I could be putting smiles on my face... But the real me was crying inside so loud so loud... But it only can echo's back... Without a single person notice...
Have you ever thought of what I've been through? No you don't cause you are much more lucky then me... Thinking smoking is great? NO IT ISN'T!!!
Wish that I was never there and never was...
