Living In The Motion

.Monday, August 31, 2009 ' 12:09 AM Y

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THE RULES OF 15:
* Go through your wall and list the first 15 names you see.
* Do not list any repeats; simply go to the next name in the list
* Then, answer the 39 questions below, pertaining to the 15 people.
* When you finish, tag all 15 people in the list, so the cycle can continue.
* If you've been tagged, copy and paste this information into a new note, and follow the directions above.
1. Ivy
2. Gladys
3. Iskandar
4. Jia Hui
5. Donald
6. Joey
7. Kai Feng
8. Elyvin
9. Gina
10.Mark
11.Jeslyn
12. Agnes
13. Jeremy
14. Denise
15. Kerene

1. How did you meet 1 ? Ivy
School.

2. What would you do if you never met 8? ELVYIN
Hmm... No one for me to racist le...

3. Would you date 2 ? GLADYS
Hmm... Lolx... Never thought of it...

4. Have you ever seen 11 cry? JESLYNN
Er... Yupx

5. Would 3 and 13 make a good couple? Iskandar & JEREMY
Nope... I tink they would kill each other first...

6. Describe 9. GINA
My Retarded Mouse~!

7. Do you like 2? GLADYS
As long as she dun use her korean words and scold me... Yes y not... Lolx.

8. Do you think 6 is attractive? Joey
Yupx~!

9. When was the last time you talked to 14? Denise
Forgotten~ I tink should be Monday ba~!

10. Would you ever date 7 ? Kai Feng
Lolx... Hahahas... Sure~

11. Where does 15 live? Kerene
Woodlands~! Private... Tsk~

12. What is the best thing about 8 ? ELVYIN
His face... Would make me smile~ Even though I feel lyk punching him~

13. What would you like to tell 13 right now? JEREMY
Come down often eh~ Miss you~

14. What is the best thing about 12? Agnes
Ben dan flower vase~ Hahahas... Anyway she's a nice nice girl~

15. Have you ever kissed 12? Agnes
Lolx... Nope... I will be slap i tink~

16. What's the best memory you have with 14 ? Denise
My nice nice maid... And runs lyk chicken~

17. Who is 10's best friend? Mark
Wow he got alot man... We BROTHER'S~!

18. Is 15 Pretty ? Kerene
ok bah.

19. What was your first impression of 4? Jia Hui
Hmm... A nice nice quite girl...

20. Is 1 your best friend? Ivy
Hmmm... In sch yeap.

21. Have you seen 5 in the last month? DONALD
Yes... I see him almost everyday duh...

22. When was the last time you saw 11? JESLYN
Yesterday!

23. Have you been to 13's house? JEREMY
Yes~!

24. When's the next time you'll see 9? GINA
Maybe next sat~ Since she's busy with her coming exam's~ Kampateh!

25. Are you really close to 6 ? Joey
Hmm... Hai hao ba... Good friend~

26. Would you give 3 a hug? Iskandar
Wow I hug him often~

27. Would 8 and 9 make a good couple? ELVYIN & GINA
Mmmm... Maybe? turns out to be good~

28. Do you know a secret about 5? DONALD
Hmmm... Maybe?

29. Describe the relationship between 14 and 4 ? Denise & Jia hui
Friends~

30. What's your friendship like with 7 ? Kai Feng
BEst friend~!

31. Have you ever danced with 12 ? Agnes
No... Lolx... Lata fall down... Hahahahas

32. How do you know 8 ? ELVYIN
Through Jeremy Teo~

33. Does 2 have a bf/gf? GLADYS
Hmm... IDK~ Hahahas... got Boy-Friend, Girl- Friend Dozens of them~

34. Have you ever wanted to smack 4 in the face? Jia Hui
Nope... I dun smack girls...

35. Has 13 met your mother? JEREMY
Yupx... Lolx

36. Have you traveled anywhere with 10?Mark
Lolx... Couldn't remember!

37. If you gave 7 $100, what would he/she spend it on? Kai Feng
Lolx... He wil buy things for his girl~

38. What's your best memory of 2? GLADYS
None... But aleast she dosen't have any bad memories with me~

39. What is your best memory with 8? ELVYIN
Alot manzx... The best was Punching his face~ Lolx... Jking... Hahahas... How would I~

Wootz~ Done~^^

.Sunday, August 30, 2009 ' 11:28 AM Y

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Falling for you again~

Dam blogger gt problem...
Cannot Centralise and change colour... I meant all my tools are gone...
Bloody hell...
Never mind Esmond is nice... Gonna wait~ And continue posting~ Lolx.

This few days have been thinking hard man.
Am i suppose to 'try' to go go for another relationship...
Haisx... Getting me insane...
people says:
Love can change the coldest man on earth.
Love could change all the final descions that have been made.
Love would make a person change himself.
Love Could make a person scarfice almost anything.

But Love also have the:
-Hardest descions
-Greatest fall
-Self scarfice
-Emotions breakdown

Am I suppose to pursuit on? And maybe yet to face another fall?
Do I have enough courage to withstand this fall?
Now I'am talking about alone...

But I'd swear if i gonna fall for you.
I'll quit smoking~

Just say you Love me... Thats all I need to know~
If love will sink, I'd be walking in the underwater ground with you!

.Saturday, August 29, 2009 ' 9:17 PM Y

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Scare To Fall For Her~

.Tuesday, August 25, 2009 ' 11:01 PM Y

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I Love You!

I Like You!

I Miss You!

Isn't these words very familliar?

Sounds sweet right?

I Hate You

I Dislike You!

I Don't Wanna See You!

Isn't these word hurtful?

Sounds bitter eh...

Is easliy said out by people.

But do you know how heavy each word contain?

No right...

Haisx...

The main 3 expect of Love people is seeking:

-Mutral Trust

-Honesty

-Freedom

But the same 3 things that break'em up

-Lack Of Trust

-Not Honest

-Tied Up

Have you ever thought of what your're seeking?

Can you do it the same way back?

If no...

I don't think you should even seek it...

No point having one of them giving in...

In the end...

Is another sad story... ...

Don't Irritated Esmond Too Much... Till The Day I Throw My Temper, You Wouldn't Wanna See It!!!

.Sunday, August 23, 2009 ' 11:35 PM Y

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Haisx...

I realise that...

What if I fall in love again...?

Will I bare to take another fall?

Or maybe...

Continue what I yearning for?

Cold hearted?

Will I be able to reach there?

Haisx...

Gotta... Get my thinking straight fast...

Arggghhhxxxx...!!!!

I love the sound of the tunder,

Espcially at night,

Cause is just feels like the sound is ehcoing through the lonely cold night,

And that's the way my heart felt before...

Those lightning are like flashes of memories,

That wouldn't go off,

It's like a scar,

So pain...

.Saturday, August 22, 2009 ' 10:37 PM Y

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Who Could Tell Me What Happen?

Man... This few days... Got my head spining...

Just can't think it right...

Getting evil?

Doing stupid things.

Haisx...

Sorry man... I just don't feel your love.

If giving up is the best way,

Hope you sucess.

How sweet is Love?

How bitter is giving up?

How sour is jealous?

How hot to be angry?

Losing my emotions...

Maybe...

I just can't get over the past...

That haunt me over and over...

Scare of Love...

So what,

Whenever I see you i feel butterfly.

I just don't want to have another sad ending...

Esmond is saddist.

Right?

我在孤独的路上没有尽头

一辈子有多少的来不及发现

已经

失去最重要的东西

恍然大悟

早已远去为何总是

在犯错之后才肯相信

错的是自己...

If time would go back, I rather not appear. I rather not appear and change for your smile...

.Wednesday, August 19, 2009 ' 11:33 PM Y

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Hard To Love?

Hard choice eh...
Feels like wanna love but same time don't feel like...
Everytime I see you,
I get butterfly...
But at the same time,
I feel confuse,
Heartpain,
Can't think properly.
Cause at the same time.
Esmond is learning to be hard hearted...
But...
Is always fail in the end...
How...

Anyway Happy Birthday to JIA HUI~ ^^

Caught in cobweb of dreams,

got frozen tears of thee,

blot images, afar they gleam,

knot tightens, could not foresee.

Lonely in the maze of time,

barely smile my heart forlorn,

slowly beckons a distant chime,

only song of a winter morn.

.Monday, August 17, 2009 ' 10:55 PM Y

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Peeps In Fragrant~

To those peepz that seldom come Fragrant le,

Hey do come often kays,

Because of you guyz it brings life to Fragrant...

Now Fragrant getting lesser and lesser people le...

Sad to say.

But hope that it will become flood like it use to be last time...

I could remember the first time going...

Full of life man~

Really look forward to you guyz~!!!

Things may seems fading... But I'll try to hang on to it...

. ' 12:34 AM Y

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To Love Or Not...

Sometimes I find this question keeps bothering me,

Haisx...

Seriously...

How to love...

And how long do you think you can love me?

I don't believe things like forever.

Cause alot of facts prove me wrong...

Haisx... How...

How many of you will tears when you are touch?

I guess,

There must've be quite amount of peepz out there...

How does it feels like?

But why I always watch those touching show,

I felt confuse...

Is like a undescrible feeling...

I don't tears,

But instead I laugh...

Could anybody tell me why?

Those undescrible feeling that kept inside me... Hard to express...

.Saturday, August 15, 2009 ' 1:00 PM Y

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Back~

Ugh... Just woke up by Gina Sms...

Lolx...

Scare me lo...

Ahem... Kays back to yesterday...

I hope that 'that' matter won't happen again...

And a Personnal Thanks to DONALD,

For settle the problem...

Maybe wasn't the way i want...

But still Thanks. :D

And to the peepz outside...

If you are seriously still unhappy about the problem,

Can still come confront...

As long as no back action...

If not...

Don't blame me...

No need call people just you and me settle next time.

Don't say till so great I go find people wack you.

You want just come one one...

No need so many people.

By the way...

Maybe this matter is over le...

So... ...

I think there won't be problem le ba...

Unless there's still got people hu is unhappy der ba...

Things comes things goes... But if you don't cherish it... I won't mind losing a lousy friend like you.

.Thursday, August 13, 2009 ' 12:06 AM Y

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Fucking Hell!!!

Kanina...

To those peepz not happy with me in Fragrant,

Or my group...

Not happy with me come confront me...

Don't backstab...

Got balls come...

If not fuck off...

Don't come kp so much infront of other people...

You are none other then some dogs...

Think what...

Come stab one friendly people infront of me,

Then backstab from behind very song arhx...

Eh...

C'mon la hor... Buay song come try only la hor~!

U KNOW HU YOU ARE... DON'T MAKE ME COME GET THE SHIT OUT OF YOU...

Hate me fuck off...

Don't come act big...

Say I flirt...

You go look at yourself and ask other's...

You are none better then a flirt too...

Don't think you smile at me.

I don't hu the hell you guyz kay...

Seriously...

Come...

Don't hide behind people back!

I DARE TO POST I DARE TO ADMIT...

GOT BALLS COME...

SERIOUSLY I DON'T LIKE YOU GUYZ EITHER...

SO FUCK OFF!

.Tuesday, August 11, 2009 ' 12:37 AM Y

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Got This Link From Elvyin so went to try it~

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Lolx... MOst of it is kinda right...

.Monday, August 10, 2009 ' 11:20 PM Y

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As I Promise

Hahahas... As I promise I'll be posting tonight...

Hmmm... Yesterday very tired... Went back home at about 12+

Lolx...

Yesterday went to Suntec with Zhi rui they all...

Want go see firework...

We go play the stupid UFO catcher thingy thing...

Lolx...

George pro sia...

Caught 3 of it, If I'am not wrong...

Then Kiam Ping got 1 too.

And Wei Xin too.

Lolx... Poor Elvyin and Jeremy.

Spend almost $20 but get nothing...

Lucky i never go play.

Play till 7.50 le.

Then we walk to don't where go see the firework,

Lolx

Stupid big tree. Go block the bloody view... Sianz...

Then go back...

Went to SengKang CC meet up with my sister they all then go home le...

Sad poems are the divine way to tell beautiful, poetic things of the heart.

.Saturday, August 8, 2009 ' 2:57 PM Y

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Updated Songs~

-17 Minutes Remix - Johnta Austin

-You May Never Know - Johnta Austin

-Yalla Habibi - Karl Wolf

-What's A Man To Do - Johnta Austin
-Some Things Never Die - Claude Kelly
-Savior - Quincy Jagher

-Past Time - Johnta Austin

-One Dance - Quincy Jagher

-My Everything (CDQ) - Claude Kelly

-Love Rocket - Chris Brown

-Love - Karl Wolf

-If I Have You - Devin Johnson

-Gone With The Wind - Karl Wolf

-Get A Room - Khrys Lawson Ft. Lloyd

-Empty Bottle - David Correy

-Die For You - Taj Jackson

Hope that you guyz will enjoy it

Will be updating tonight,

Depend on mood~

. ' 12:12 AM Y

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Claude Kelly - Down~

said it's getting late,

I gotta go

Can you walk me to my door

Better way,

tell me no

& you start to pull me close

You're reaching to kiss me and i push away

Like i do everytime

What if we get caught, that's what i say

It's the same thing every night

All of a sudden it flips and burn

& it's time to move on

I thought that it was gonna last forever

I don't wanna go

So stay with me

Stay with me

Don't let go my hand

Say what i need to hear

Tell me that it just won't end

Cuz nothing's ever gonna feel as right

As those summer days & nights

When i had you around& you were only two doors down

Yeah yeahhYou were only two doors down

It's been a while

You haven't called

& you promised that you would

But so did I

Just look at us

Can't believe we fell apart

I bet you're out there meeting new people

Cuz i know i am

But i still haven't found your equal

The one that makes me wanna say;

Stay with me

Don't let go my hand

Say what i need to hear

Tell me that it just won't end

Cuz nothing's ever gonna feel as right

As those summer days & nights

Now you aint around& someone else is two doors down

Now the seasons are changing, yeah

& we've become strangers

But

Maybe we'll meet again

Cuz i really miss youu, ohww

I hope one day i get to tell you

Stay with me

Don't let go my hand

Say what i need to hear

Tell me that it just won't end

Cuz nothing's ever gonna feel as right

As those summer days & nights

When i had you around

& you were only two doors down

Only two doors down ...

(end)

Things just won't go smoothly time to time...

Esmond is holding back,

Keeping his rage.

No promise that he will hold on long enough...

Things are just going bad to worst.

If his gonna choose to give up...

He'll give up everything that he had...

Even himself...

As the wind blows... I could hear those sorrow's calling upon the far away places where no one could possibly reach...

.Wednesday, August 5, 2009 ' 11:42 PM Y

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Lolx... Was tag by Sing Yi~
50 Little Secrets.
Be honest no matter what
Then tag at least 10 friends.

01. Who was your last text from?
Denise.

02. Where was your default picture taken?
Erm... Outside?

03. Your relationship status?
SINGLE:)

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
Kinda yeax...

05. What is your current mood?
Moodless...

06. How many siblings do you have?
2...

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Edlyn and Evelyn Sweet sisters~

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
Place where no one could reach me?

09. Have a crazy side?
Duh... Everybody does...

10. Ever had a near death experience?
Nope...

11. Something you do a lot?
Sleep, Eat, Staring in blanks and provoke people...

12. Angry at anyone?
Nah... No point to be angry...

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Erm... Me...

14. When was the last time you cried?
Long ago lo... Can't really remembered.

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Yes... My girl, Friends and family~

16. What you think about when you are falling asleep?
Any place could gimme lie on...

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Daddy.

18. What is your favorite song?
Lotsa...

19. What are you doing right now?
Eating while doing this quiz~

20. Who do you trust right now?
None.

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
IDK...

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
No...

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
Jeremy Ng...

24. Describe your life in one word?
Motionless... Black and white...

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
None...

26. What should you be doing right now?
Staring at blanks...

27. What are you listening to now?
My blog der music~

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
Iskandar...

29. Who was the last person who yelled at u?
My mum?

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
Erm... Maybe?

31. What is your natural hair color?
Black.

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Iskandar... Doing stupid things...

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
Her... ...

34. What do you hear?
Lies...

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
Straight

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
No bah...

37. Do you have a best friend(s)?
Yes.

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Nope.

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
No...

40.Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
No...

41. Are you happy with life right now?
Hai hao bah... Feels like ending it soon~!

42. Are you jealous right now?
No

43. What jewellery are you currently wearing?
Ear ring...

44. What were you doing on friday night?
Forgot liao...

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeax...

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Kinda...

47. Is there anyone you are disappointed in now?
Nope... Everyone got their own ways...

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
Sick.

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
2.30, came back late...

50. Tag ten people?
-Agnes
-Jia Hui
-Gina
-Denise
-Joey
-Jeslyn
-Elvyin
-Kai Feng
-Jerry
-THOSE HU VIEW IT~!

Arhgxxx... My coughing from bad to worst le... Sienz...
C'ya~!

. ' 12:41 AM Y

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Now is late le...

Esmond is tired...

So gonna random write as I feel...

Maybe this is for my future girl?

Lolx... Thinking too far

But just feel like saying...

Love is like giving way,

To know each other better,

Even the day had to give way to the night,

So why not,

Cherish every day/night with your love ones...

You'll never know what will happen tomorrow...

Or you'll never know,

How much you missed Yesterday.

You maybe not the first girl I had,

You maybe not the first girl I kissed,

You maybe not the first girl I held,

But girl,

I hope that,

You're the last girl I would ever hold,

kiss and to be with.

Stay with me...

No promise that I won't hurt you time to time,

But I swear my Love for you is real...

.Tuesday, August 4, 2009 ' 12:29 AM Y

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Arhx... Dammit...

Hu knows what is Love?

Esmond had forgot how to love...

Seriously...

Can it be teach?

Lost in thought,

Lost in pain,

Lost in fear,

That you can never retain.

Lost trouble,

Lost in grief,

Lost in heartbreak,

That you can never relief.

Lost in sorrow,

Lost in death,

Lost in misery,

That you can never refresh.

Lost in life,

Lost in words,

Lost in everything,

That you can never return.

Lost in chaos,

Lost in peace,

Lost in burdens,

That you can ever release.

So I'am lost?

Could I find it back?

Just couldn't undertand why human's must be so complicated...

My heart is slowly turning cold...

If one day you could choose to be a Angel or Devil which will you be? Why?

.Monday, August 3, 2009 ' 12:20 AM Y

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His Falling Apart Inside... ...

. ' 12:10 AM Y

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Haisx this few days got nothing much to post...

Losing memories...

Can't really remember what happen in the morning...

So will be random... Depend on my mood...

.Saturday, August 1, 2009 ' 1:03 AM Y

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If one day I'am going to choose Between My last breathe or Loving you,
I will use my last breathe,

Not to say I Love You...

But to say

'Go on your life without me,'

It may seems cold from the start,

Unbearable tears,

Confusion of emotion,

Lost of direction,

Heartbroken...

But I do believe there would be someone out there is better then me,

I know is a lousy excuse...

But there's no point hanging over to a dead,

And even if I was dead,

I promise,

I'll be by your side...

If forgetting you is so easy,There won't be any history...

As this lonely night goes by,

I'am sitting here all alone,

Thinking to myself,

Waiting for you,

Hoping that you would come by,

I'am all alone here baby...

Tears dropping,

Heart bleeding,

Lost of directions,

Living scars that can't be heal...

Is this all meant to be?

All was it me from the start...

Baby I swear I'll be here waiting...