.Wednesday, January 12, 2011 ' 12:55 AM Y
only you will be able to make it .
Guess that no one would have read my blog since is already dead for so long.
Too many things had happen recently...
I am so confuse...
Had lots of question in my heart...
Was I being foolish?
Or was it a never?
There is so much things that I wanna tell you.
B... But... Do I have the courage?
Everything is crystal and clear...
I've just lost another meaning of forever...
And now...
Another person is going to move on his life to another world.
Why must all this thing happen....
I may seems not to care for anything...
But must everything be shown?
I am Sorry...
For being such a fool...
Maybe it wasn't meant to be...
Or it was never there...
I did my best to make you smile...
But I guess that, others is better then me...
Least they will not make you cry...
Felt like a loser... ...
I am lost...
Now I am 6 feet under the ground...
Who could save me?
I guess no one would understand the way I felt...
I'am dying alittle bit inside each day.
.Wednesday, August 18, 2010 ' 12:51 PM Y
only you will be able to make it .
Hey People Finally got my playlist changed!
Hope you guyz love the songs~!
Hahahas~
Any new songs to intro.
Just wrote it down in my tag box!
Thank youuu
.Tuesday, August 17, 2010 ' 12:28 AM Y
only you will be able to make it .
Days getting faster the year go by so fast...
Soon I have to go out and work...
Do everybody have an ambition?
For me I've got alot...
But...
Some people might think that it is ridiculous...
From young I wish to be a zookeeper.
But my parents says that it is a worthless job.
But I told myself as long as I like it is alright even though it might be a joke.
But when time goes by...
I think of jobs such as scienceist and lotsa other odd job.
As in I don't really like sitting inside the office or serving other people....
Cause I wanna live and work on my own side or in a little group that could move around.
Hahahas...
Maybe I should strive hard for it.
What about you guyz?
.Wednesday, August 11, 2010 ' 6:08 PM Y
only you will be able to make it .
Hated my new place so much...
Even though the things inside my house is much more nicer and alot of it is brand new.
But to me still is like a house without anything.
Is just a place for me to stop and take a rest.
A place for me to take a break.
Sometimes I just wish that I would knock myself hard and wash away all my memories.
I hate it so much down here.
Each time I go back from fragrant,
I will still think of the road that I walked home everyday like last time.
I had so much of myself already.
I felt like crying each time I starts to miss my old house.
Slowly dying inside of me.
I'am sick of it...
Is like playing a sad song over and over again.
Trust me I will not believe in any gods any more.
Cause it dosen't work!!!
So what that I've prayed hard for not moving out.
Decision have been made.
I've tried so hard to lie to myself that how well am I now.
But it dosen't work.
The more I lied to myself the more I felt sick.
Sick of lying.
Sick of being here.
Sick of my family.
Sick of being ESMOND WONG!
Sick of who Iam.
If there's one wish for me now.
I WISH TO GO BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FCUK HEAVEN!
I HATE IT DOWN HERE!
I HATE TO LIE TO MYSLEF!
I HATE EVRYTHING THAT THEY HAVE DONE!
I HATE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
ESMOND !
How I wish I would die while I sleep.
.Wednesday, July 28, 2010 ' 5:28 PM Y
only you will be able to make it .
Here's Some Quiz I Took,
Don't cheat yourself answer the truthfully.
1) What's your full name: Esmond Wong Ee Kwan
2) Do you think that your name is funny? : No!
3) Are you single or attached? : Attached.
4) Do you like your life now? : Not At All...
5) Why? : Cause the location suxs here.
6) Do you have any friends stays near here? : Yes.
7) What's their names? : Gina & Wei Xin.
8) Do you go out with them often? : Gina no, Wei Xin yes.
9) What do you consider friends as? : People which are important in my life.
10) Do you have any regrets? : Yes.
11) Have you ever lost your friends?: Yes.
12) How does it feels like? : Painful.
13) What type of girl/boy you like? : Hmmm... Gotta think. Depends? As long as she's good :)
14) Have you ever broke someone's heart? : Yeax... ...
15) Have you ever cry for a girl/boy? : Uh... Yes i do...
16) So how long do you cried? : Hmmm.... 1 Sec Cause only got one unless tears came out.
17) So what are you waiting now?: Waiting for wei xin, then go Fragrant together.
18) Any places that you wanna go? : Yeax... There's one... My old house... ...
19) What type of person you hate the most? Splite Peronaility.
20) If you got infnite money what will you do? : Check if is enough to by back my time?
21) Do you find this quiz's bore? Hmmm... Okay la... I bore too anyway.
22) What do you think about sex?: Lolx! So random sia... Hmmm.... Sex is just sex lor. Wats the big idea?
23) If anyone hurts your close one's what will you do? : Beat them up.
24) How much you know yourself? : Hmmm... As much as I know lor.
25) What If one day a stranger kiss you? : Hmmm... Kiss him/her back?
26) So how do you feel now? : Nth much wanna finish this quiz?
27) Answer honestly have you ever think about having two stead? : Hmmm... Why not? But does she allow?
28) Have you ever cheated on you girl? : Last time ba.
29) How many girls/boy you've crush on? : Afew of them?
30) If one day you could turn back your time, where would it be? : I wanna go back to my old house!
31) When is your most sadist day? : My Birthday.
Wee... Finally done~!
Hey people welcome to do the quiz.
.Tuesday, July 27, 2010 ' 1:06 AM Y
only you will be able to make it .
I've always wonder...
Why does most of the people rather goes by the easy way then the hard way?
Izzit is always the easy ways that makes people happy?
Or izzit they scare of the hard ways?
If everything we need to guide by your side always,
Then what could you learn?
Or you will rather choose to rely on me?
Do you think I had an easy path too?
If you would cut open my heart and look deep into it,
You will find lotsa unheal wounds.
So why do I wanna care so much?
Is simple cause I LOVE YOU
If I don't I woundn't even give a single shit about it.
I hope you would change day by day.
There's no forever young and there won't be me always guiding you always.
I might gone one day.
.Sunday, July 11, 2010 ' 1:01 PM Y
only you will be able to make it .
Hey Baby Happy 8th Months!
Didn't know that I could go so far.
Can't promise you foever,
Cause there's no such things as foever.
But aleast now I know,
You're all I needed baby!
NeverthelessYou'reTheOnlyOneThatMakesMeLoveSoLong!
Sorry that I haven't get you anything thats really nice.
But I promise you,
I will give you the best.
That's my love for you!
